“You have a traitor there, Aslan,” said the witch. Of course everyone present knew that she meant Edmund. But Edmund had got past thinking about himself after all he’d been through and after the talk he’d had that morning. He just went on looking at Aslan. It didn’t seem to matter what the witch said.”
In The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, Edmund leaves his brothers and sisters to chase after the White Witch because what she offers to him seems more enticing. He soon learns that everything she told him was lies, and he is treated very poorly in her presence. After being rescued by Aslan’s army and talked to by Aslan, he seems completely changed. This quote describing the White Witch’s accusations against Edmund and his reaction remind me perfectly of Satan’s accusations against us.
Jesus has made me completely clean in God’s eyes and rescued me from my own White Witch, Satan. Even still Satan tries to come back and tell me that I’m a traitor and that I don’t deserve to be part of God’s family. He does this by attacking my service to God, convincing me that I’m not doing enough or that my heart is impure. My reaction sometimes is to give in to the lies and try to work harder when in reality God loves me no matter what I do. When accused by the White Witch Edmund looked at Aslan. Even when Satan tries to accuse me, I can simply look at Jesus and know that nothing Satan says matters.
Maybe I’ve written this before, but I’m writing it again with new words as a reminder to myself and hopefully an encouragement to you.
Stand firm against the schemes of the devil. Ephesians 6:11b
How does Satan attack me? Through the little lies that enter my head. Just like Eve in the garden, he puts doubts about God’s character and God’s plan in my head. He makes me doubt what is good around me. I try to maintain a regular devotional and prayer time- he says, “did God ever say you have to read every day? You’re tired, so take a day off.” My boyfriend compliments me, and Satan shoots it down by pointing out all of my flaws. When I face something difficult, Satan convinces me that I have to do it all on my own without God or humans. I have an idea of something to write, and Satan whispers that someone has already written it better. The list goes on with the little lies that Satan puts in my mind.
Paul reminds me to stand firm. The only way to do that is to maintain a strong relationship with God. It means resisting the devil by opening my Bible even when I’m tired. It means catching myself in the mental comparison game and instead thanking God for the beauty and health he’s given me. It means accepting God’s strength and human help when tasks look daunting. It means sharing my thoughts even though they may not be unique.
Mostly standing firm means covering my life with prayer.
Lately I have been struggling quite often with my brain. I’ve truly been feeling that verse that says it is not a battle against flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:12). There are forces lieing to me. Then I give in to the lies. It makes me feel bad about myself, then I just don’t want to do anything. It’s a battle in my mind to not give in to the lies. Lies that tell me no one cares, that I’m too pushy, that I’m invisible, and other things. Once I give in and let myself believe the lies, I feel guilty for feeling down, because I know the lies are not true. It’s all in my head and there’s actually evidence to prove otherwise.
In reading Psalm 16, verse one really sticks out. David is pleading for safety and refuge. I have asked God to be my refuge from my own mind. I don’t want to give in to the lies anymore. Verse four is particularly true when it says “troubles multiply for those who chase after other gods.” Those lies can become gods if I allow them to control my decisions, especially when they affect how I interact with other people.
Jason Gray had it right when he sang “Hold Me Back.” I need God to hold back the selfish jealous part of me so that his love can shine through. I need God’s strength though because it is so hard sometimes.