Posted in Bible Study

Surrounded by thornbushes

“But I will fence her in with thornbushes. I will block the road to make her lose her way. Hosea 2:6.

God has a perfect plan for every life. It involves our happiness. He will make us happy in Him.
And then we don’t listen. Is that in God’s plan? He knew we wouldn’t listen but did he desire that from the beginning?

In the not so distant past, I wanted something. The opportunity was presented to me. I had doubts about whether this was an opportunity from God or a temptation. I convinced myself to believe that it was an opportunity from God. Looking back I think it was a temptation and I fell for it. Thankfully God protected me and brought me back to his perfect plan but not without a bit of pain first. I can see where God put thornbushes around me to keep what I thought was good from happening. It hurt because I kept trying to get to what I wanted on the other side of the thornbushes.

God has that perfect plan but sometimes we choose to stray from the plan. We may be confused by temptation. We may ignore God’s voice because the other thing just too shiny to pass up (too bad it’s simply fool’s gold). Regardless of why we stray, we do. Like Israel here, God places thornbushes around us. That’s why when we keep trying to get it, we feel pain. Eventually, we’ll realize that maybe we’re not meant to have it. Eventually we turn back to God’s plan.

So maybe it isn’t that God has multiple plans for each way we could mess up. Maybe he isn’t being cruel when we feel pain. Maybe we cause or own pain by not giving the control to God. Maybe he has one plan for each life and the pain is just a way of bringing us back to his plan and reminding us that he has it all under control.

Posted in Life, London, Music

Everything Rides on Hope

“Everything rides on hope now…”

The past couple weeks have been a bit of a rough transition back into life here in the States. I knew I might have some stress jumping straight back into classes and work, but I never imagined how stressful and how purposeless I would feel. There have been times I just feel like I’m moving through life with no purpose. Most of this feeling is just because I have been exhausted and tiredness always messes with my emotions, but part of this emotion is true. My life in London had so much purpose on a daily level, but here at school it’s harder to see the purpose of everyday life. I have been frustrated with the idea of sitting in classes and writing papers just to get a grade. It feels so pointless compared to the work I did in London. Last night was one of those nights, but my friend reminded me that I have to look at the bigger picture. Sitting in classes and writing papers does have purpose in that it is preparing me for more. Also there are little things in life that I can do that have daily purpose and serve a goal of sharing love.

“When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I’ll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm”

Hope is what will pull me through this transition back to the daily grind here. Hope that God has it all figured out. Hope that He will reveal my heart’s questions in the right time. Hope that God knows what I desire and how and when to best fulfill those desires. Hope that it will feel better soon. Hope that I will make it through.

There’s nothing I can do to make life slow down a bit.


“Everything rides on hope now.

Everything rides on faith somehow.”