Hmm. I haven’t been here in a while. It’s not that I haven’t had blog worthy moments. Maybe the reason involves summer laziness or wedding distractions, but there’s also a part of me that has just felt the need to be quiet for a while.
I was reading in James the other week, and while James always holds a huge throat punch the latter part of the first chapter highlighted itself. The author writes, “Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls.” (James 1:19-21 ESV).
My mouth gets me in trouble sometimes. I say things before thinking; I speak in order to fit in. Sometimes I say the wrong thing, and other times I say something in the wrong way. The part about listening and speaking apply heavily in my spiritual and relational parts of life. The anger part, though, didn’t ever feel as applicable because I am generally not an outwardly angry person. This time, though, the addendum to the third point, “for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God”, stuck out. Anger doesn’t have to be manifested outwardly to be anger. I have an inward bubbling anger when I do get angry. I’m more likely to cold shoulder someone and think mean things about them than say something to their face. I might sometimes speak ill behind their back, which goes back to the slow to speak part, but God showed me that the cold shoulder and mean thoughts were just as unpleasing. They didn’t produce the righteousness of God within me. If I was busy angrily seething over my hurt or frustration, I wasn’t seeking the face of God.
So the solution? Thankfully James also throws us a bone occasionally. Immediately after punching us with the truth of what anger doesn’t do, he tells us to put it away and receive the word of God. That saves our souls. Now literally, Jesus does the saving of our souls, but our actions of seeking Him rather than seeking anger bring us closer to Him.
While I’ve been quiet on here lately, I’ve been learning about this and other things. Maybe I’ll share them in time, or maybe the lesson is that some lessons are to be shown in my life rather than in my words.
In other news, I’m excited for the start of this school year. It’s one week away from teacher meeting week. While I still can’t get into my classroom, I have been scouring the internet and making resources and preparing my mind for the return of my lovelies. Here’s to a good school year!